Auto-Response: The Politics Of Being Gone
I used to have it all. Then I lost it all. Now I have most of it back, but I will never be the same. And for that, I am eternally grateful. – PGB
It’s been a slow week here, but in real life it’s been a week like no other. In what began as a week that was set to be the best in a while — I was preparing to come home to Hollywood with no more travel plans in sight — suddenly turned grim when my social circle suffered a devastating loss and I had to rush home to Arizona instead. Once I finally did get back home, I was immediately faced with another tough loss that all in all has made for an emotionally draining week and a tough first week back home. Being back in your own bed doesn’t feel as good when tough times make you feel alone, but I’ve been lucky to be surrounded by a great group of friends that have reminded me how lucky I am to have developed a good handful of genuine relationships in just one year of being in LA. I’m very much looking forward to a relaxing weekend ahead in which I have every meal scheduled with long lost friends, plans to hit my much loved and missed favorite old haunts, and plenty of time outlined to work on PGB.
If there’s one thing I do believe from my Catholic upbringing, it is that everything is part of a greater plan. I tried to explain this to B the other night when he made a comment about my walking home in the dark after running to the office in the morning and leaving later in the evening than I had hoped. I told him I don’t believe in living in fear because whatever is going to happen is going to happen when it deems, but apparently Jewish faith doesn’t see it that way. I promised to take a cab next time.
Siempre habrá cosas en la vida que no podemos controlar. Todo lo que podemos hacer es deseo de las cosas que pensamos que queremos, y confiamos en que lo que se entiende que será incluso si no entendemos por qué.
[There will always be things in life we can't control. All we can do is wish for the things we think we want, and trust that what is to be is what will be, even if we do not understand why.]
